Here I Go Again...

I'm embarrassed to say that I have failed at yet another diet.  In the winter/spring, I was fairly successful at eating clean and counting calories.  I lost about 15 pounds and was feeling good.  But then life happened.  School was out for the summer, and I completely lost control and ruined the progress I had worked so hard to make.  I've learned that when I'm home and on a routine, I do fairly well.  But when I deviate from that, it goes downhill fast.  For example, I was at Impact for almost a week this summer.  I lived in a hotel room without a fridge, so everything I ate was fast food or junk they provided in the cafeteria on campus at Lipscomb.  Also, when my sister and family come to town, I stay at my mom's with them...and she makes cakes, cookies, huge meals, etc etc etc.  It's.too.hard.  But the fact is, that's life.  I will never live in a world where everyone around me is dieting and refuses to eat things that tempt me.  I need to learn to deal with reality and avoid the temptation.  I need to stop using food to fill voids in my life.  It doesn't work- in so many ways.  I'm sick of feeling unable to be my true self and being held back by my appearance.  I'm tired of Satan using it against me and making me feel unworthy.  I'm tired of buying into those lies.  I have to try (for the millionth time) to fix it.

Sooooooo, my idea is this:  I'm beginning Weight Loss Wednesdays.  Each Wednesday, I'm going to weigh in and reveal on my blog the results of the prior week in my effort to lose weight.  I will tell how much I lose or how much I gain.  I promise to be 100% truthful, good or bad.  I just simply need the accountability.  I need to know that people are reading and supporting me.  I haven't decided for sure how I will go about it.  More than likely, I will do a combination of calorie counting and clean eating.  I'm going to try and eliminate most processed foods, eat more fruits and veggies, etc.  I know how to do it, I just need the strength to do it.  My body always fights me when I diet and my metabolism must have died before I was even born.  It's just super hard for me.  Nevertheless, it won't happen if I don't try.  So, here I am again.

I am not soliciting praise, nor am I pleading for you to write cheers or chants to scream at me daily.  I do ask that if you read my blog regularly,  just comment with your name (at least).  Knowing there are people I will have to answer to will help keep me motivated.  So, please please please take a second and comment with your name.  If I don't feel anyone is reading my results, it will defeat the entire purpose of this attempt.  Also, if you struggle with dieting or anything else you'd like to be held accountable for, I would love to help you, too!  Life is too short to have regrets, so I'm trying once more to make myself proud.

I love you all, friends! Thanks in advance for your encouragement and support!

P.S.  I will weigh in the morning and still reveal the results Wednesday, even though it won't be a full week.  I also have to figure out what to do the 20-27 when I go to the beach.  How do I diet then?  I will have to make a plan...