I think all of us can admit to moments in our lives in which we question not God himself, but His plan for our life. I am there right now.
Finishing school was stressful, with lots of loose ends to tie up before I could leave. I haven't made time for God lately and have been hearing that little voice in the back of my head telling me "Amy, it's time...sit down and read." I had also been thinking about looking around for a book that would hopefully speak to me and encourage me throughout this time in my life. Looking back this afternoon, I'm in awe of how God has put this all together. I'm forewarning you now, this may be a long one.
I had time to kill the other day while I was waiting on my new laptop to be installed with all the latest virus protection and spyware, so I went in Lifeway next door and walked down aisle after aisle looking for anything that would catch my eye. Something definitely did...the "ON SALE NOW" signs. I spotted a book entited "Wilderness Skills for Women," by Marian Jordan. I had never heard of the book before but because it was on sale for $3.98, I grabbed it! I did think it was probably on sale because it wasn't that great of a book, but hoping I'd glean something from this lady's wisom, I finally started reading it today.
Wow- I can't even describe what I'm feeling right now. I have no doubt that God sent me into that store last week and led me straight to the aisle where this book was waiting especially for me. We all go through periods of wilderness and search through God's map for us in hopes of finding a way out. This author uses her experience and her study to share what she's learned. And, my heart feels lighter after only reading the first few pages.
Marian first talks about the wilderness of rejection. We've all felt rejection before, whether it be from a relationship ending, a divorce, abuse, neglect, career changes, criticism, etc. She then related this to the story of Joseph in the Bible. We're all familiar with what happened with him. His brothers plotted his murder because of jealousy, they threw him into a pit and left. Have you ever thought what Joseph must have been thinking when this happened? I'd assume it might be similar to what I think, and probably you too, when I face things in life I can't seem to understand. "Why me?"
Things didn't get better for Joseph very quickly. As his brothers sat down conversing on what to do with their brother, they saw a caravan of Ishmaelites approaching. When they decided there wasn't much in it for them to kill Joseph, they sold him to Potiphar. Potiphar found favor in Joseph and made him his personal aide. From there, we see that Potiphar's wife is relentless in pursuing him. He rejects her and runs away. But of course, she gets mad and has him thrown into prison. So, Joseph's trek in the wilderness isn't over yet. While he's in prison, he interprets dreams, which leads him to interpret Pharoah's dream. Can you see God's plan unfolding yet? In a matter of minutes, Joseph is taken from prison straight to Pharoah's house. Through Joseph, God warns Pharoah that a huge famine is about to occur. Because of this warning, they step into action. Joseph is now looked upon as a blessing and is seated in high rankings among the people.
Here's the application: This wasn't a situation of being in the right place at the right time. This is destiny! God brought Joseph to Egypt precisely for this reason. If his brothers hadn't hated him, then he wouldn't have been rejected. If he hadn't been rejected, they would have never sold him to the Ishmaelites. If they hadn't sold him to the Ishmaelites, he would have never interpreted Pharoah's dream. And you know what would have happened then.
In the end, Joseph forgives his brothers and can finally see the purpose in God's plan for his life. Marian says what seems like rejection is PROTECTION. God protected so many people through the life of Joseph. God makes known the wisdom of His sovereignty as He takes the events of our lives and shapes them for good. When Joseph stood weeping in front of his brothers,
he unveils for them the awesome plan of a loving God who allowed the painful rejection to occur so that a great and marvelous plan could happen. We do not fear, we do not dread, we do not lose hope because we know HE IS IN CONTROL! My favorite thing she said in this chapter is this: "Did you ever think about the fact that the caravan was on its way to Egypt long before Joseph was ever thrown into that pit?" Wow- God's vision goes way past ours and His plan for us is in motion as we speak. It has been even before we were born. Aren't we so blessed to serve such an AWEsome God?
So as I sit exactly where I sat a little over an hour ago as I began reading this book, I now feel like I am sitting in the very presence of God...a God who is repeatedly telling me to not lose hope like I've been so tempted to do, but trust in Him and believe that "ALL things come together for good..." I hope that God has used this book and this blog to encourage someone, somewhere reading this to keep the faith and never, ever question our lots in life. God is good..and I'm so blessed to have been reminded of that in an ever so powerful way today. Praise Him!